I must stop thinking about you,

And longing for things that are gone,

Though I find your name on my lips

As I walk in the night before dawn.

 

To myself, I must never admit

Emptiness lies in my heart.

I refuse to admit you exist.

This decision tears me apart.

 

I must tell myself you are dead,

And pretend I no longer care.

I must forget that I love,

To hide all I want to share.

 

The sorrow I feel is immense.

Emotions must stay in the past.

This ache is a red-hot fire.

I must open my heart to the blast.

 

Though I pray for you every night,

I ask God, to help me forgive

The wrongs that you have done

To destroy me while I still live.

 

My love burns with a blue flame

Consuming my heart from  inside.

You’ve taken away my trust

And wounded my self-pride.

 

I must hide the hurt and pain

And pretend I no longer feel,

To accept the hard cold fact

That your love is no longer real.

 

For the love that burns in my heart,

Must turn to ashes again,

As  I walk alone in the rain,

Without the hand of a friend.

Yu/stan/kema (Age 20)