Dear Child,

Over the years I have been able to keep you safe and free from pain. Lately, I’ve done a pretty lousy job at being your protector. I’ve taken you places to get you help, to help you get healthy and to also see a kind, loving person who would understand your hurts, give you comfort, and encourage you to grow.

Someone who could help you more than I’ve been able to. I’m not sure any more if the treatments are making you healthy or worse physically. I’ve  listened to the Dr.s, but I’m not confident any more. I know I’ve done my best at doing the right thing, but that may not be enough. I have done all I know to give information, to answer questions, to be patient. They are not listening to you. Even when you speak, you are not being heard. Even when you give from your heart over and over, no one seems to hear or care. You’ve learned to ask for what you need, but they are not hearing. Maybe they do not want to hear. It is easier for them to ignore you or tell you “no,” until you stop asking them for what you need.

So tonight, I’m asking for your forgiveness, because I have failed you. To say that to you is the hardest thing I will ever do. I am giving you  to the angels to protect you until God comes to take you home. There you will find love, acceptance, and joy as you will never find it here on earth with other people.  The angels will be kind and gentle with you and you will matter to them. Remember always, you did nothing wrong. All you did was love as a child loves.That  is never wrong. It is the one thing in this world that is absolutely right. So rest in the arms of the angels tonight, dear child. I will sleep better knowing you are safe.

Yu/stan/kema